今天醒来
再也睡不着了
起床打开电脑
听着忧伤的情歌
沉浸在伤感的旋律之中
触摸着键盘
想找一个陌生人倾诉我心里的无奈
为了让自己从你的影子里永远的走出来
让自己可以轻松一点
第一件事就是读书,温习功课
尽量不让自己去想你
积压在心里的那份惆怅有的时候让自己承受不住
快乐,其实对我来说曾经是那么简单
忧伤,其实对我来说也是这么简单
就是你不能也不会出现
每天,孤独的一个人停留在寂寞的网络
我不理人,人不理我
我所守侯的是什么?
等待的是什么?
执著的又是什么?
是一份失落的心情
一份无休的牵挂
为了一份并没有结果的感情
独自在网络上游走
忧伤的歌反复播放了多少遍
自己也不明白为什么对你有那么深的眷恋
内心的落寞不是文字所能表达
忧伤的歌还在唱着
空气还是潮湿的
我还是孤单的....
叶佩莹...我又想你了
2011年1月6日星期四
I tried to convince myself.
Why you ignore me always ?
Did you think it is worth to do this ?
You even didn't give me the opportunity to explain the reason for this.
Maybe you don't want me to do this , right ?
Is it worth time to wait for you ?
That's the question i ask myself day after day.
There's no answer , no one can give me the answer , only you.
I'm not willing to ask you.
You can't give me the confirmation now.
You said two years means different to you and me.
You have time to wait her.
But do i have time to wait for you ?
No one knows the future.
I want give you one year at most.
If you can't give me the decision , it's time to finish.
Did you think it is worth to do this ?
You even didn't give me the opportunity to explain the reason for this.
Maybe you don't want me to do this , right ?
Is it worth time to wait for you ?
That's the question i ask myself day after day.
There's no answer , no one can give me the answer , only you.
I'm not willing to ask you.
You can't give me the confirmation now.
You said two years means different to you and me.
You have time to wait her.
But do i have time to wait for you ?
No one knows the future.
I want give you one year at most.
If you can't give me the decision , it's time to finish.
2011年1月5日星期三
2011年1月1日星期六
I'm still waiting for you right here.
Happy birthday to CYY ! =]
I am still waiting for your message.
I don't remember how long i have been waiting for this moment.
It seems like the time stands still.
Well , maybe you are right.
We can't fall in love with each other only because of the long distances.
But i still very miss you.
What can i do and how can i handle this ?
I am still waiting for your message.
I don't remember how long i have been waiting for this moment.
It seems like the time stands still.
Well , maybe you are right.
We can't fall in love with each other only because of the long distances.
But i still very miss you.
What can i do and how can i handle this ?
2010年10月23日星期六
I'm useless.
I tried but I can't forget you.
I tried to not think of you.
I tried to not talk about you.
I tried to not hurt you.
But still i can't forget our strange memories.
I can't forget your sweet voice.
I can't not avoid you.
It is getting harder and harder as the days go by to fake being okay.
I never want to feel this way again.
I refuse to let anyone close to me again after you.
If I did or said something to upset you , I apologize.
However , I do really appreciate it if you talked to ME about it , NOT to everyone else !
I tell you how i feel how much i love you but you reject my loves and breaks my heart.
I don't know what i want in life.
I don't know what i want right now.
All i know is that i'm hurting so much inside that ,
and one day , there won't be any of me left.
Don't just look at me from the outside , get to know who i really am ,
and see that deep down i'm really hurting.
THAT IS LIFE AND I HAVE TO LEARN TO LIVE WITH IT.
I try to be strong for everyone , look at them if everything is fine.
Don't know where i am going , yea i'm smiling.
I am acting tough to show that i don't love you.
Each and everysecond i said once i can take any pain but this is too much , i will wait for u endless , either i will live with you or with your memories.
If i would be able to live only one day with you , i have nothing to fear.
Just for you. YPY
I tried to not think of you.
I tried to not talk about you.
I tried to not hurt you.
But still i can't forget our strange memories.
I can't forget your sweet voice.
I can't not avoid you.
It is getting harder and harder as the days go by to fake being okay.
I never want to feel this way again.
I refuse to let anyone close to me again after you.
If I did or said something to upset you , I apologize.
However , I do really appreciate it if you talked to ME about it , NOT to everyone else !
I tell you how i feel how much i love you but you reject my loves and breaks my heart.
I don't know what i want in life.
I don't know what i want right now.
All i know is that i'm hurting so much inside that ,
and one day , there won't be any of me left.
Don't just look at me from the outside , get to know who i really am ,
and see that deep down i'm really hurting.
THAT IS LIFE AND I HAVE TO LEARN TO LIVE WITH IT.
I try to be strong for everyone , look at them if everything is fine.
Don't know where i am going , yea i'm smiling.
I am acting tough to show that i don't love you.
Each and everysecond i said once i can take any pain but this is too much , i will wait for u endless , either i will live with you or with your memories.
If i would be able to live only one day with you , i have nothing to fear.
Just for you. YPY
2010年9月16日星期四
Speechless day.
I'm sick and tired of it.
I care too fucking much and for what ?
To get nothing in fucking return ?
Everytime i become good friends with someone , or become closer to people its seems like NOTHING.
it just turns to fucking crap.
Somehow all the stupid drama comes fucking around and i try to help ,
because supposedly that's what friends do ,
but all just backfires right in my fucking face.
I'M FUCKING SICK OF IT !
No more drama ,
No more trying to help ,
and no more caring about if someone is okay or not.
Because they would never think of doing anything for me , at all.
So I'm sorry for caring and if that annoys you.
I'm sorry for stoping to ask if you were okay.
God just thinking about what fucking happened today.
Makes me want to throw up.
I'm so sorry to all those reading my blog.
I just feel like letting it all out.
I understand why people emo.
I am not the one of them but i know how they feel.
haizzz~~~
I'm not going to sit in a corner and cry or anything like that.
It is true that i hide the fact inside my heart.
I just want to show it in this blog.
But like always , I'll continue to be what people always know me as , the happy , crazy girl =]
It's nothing wrong , I do it too.
But i'm tired. Tired of forgiving and forgetting all the hurt caused to me by others.
Tired of always being there for everyone and when I need them , they are not there.
I'm just tired , TIRED OF EVERYTHING.
I care too fucking much and for what ?
To get nothing in fucking return ?
Everytime i become good friends with someone , or become closer to people its seems like NOTHING.
it just turns to fucking crap.
Somehow all the stupid drama comes fucking around and i try to help ,
because supposedly that's what friends do ,
but all just backfires right in my fucking face.
I'M FUCKING SICK OF IT !
No more drama ,
No more trying to help ,
and no more caring about if someone is okay or not.
Because they would never think of doing anything for me , at all.
So I'm sorry for caring and if that annoys you.
I'm sorry for stoping to ask if you were okay.
God just thinking about what fucking happened today.
Makes me want to throw up.
I'm so sorry to all those reading my blog.
I just feel like letting it all out.
I understand why people emo.
I am not the one of them but i know how they feel.
haizzz~~~
I'm not going to sit in a corner and cry or anything like that.
It is true that i hide the fact inside my heart.
I just want to show it in this blog.
But like always , I'll continue to be what people always know me as , the happy , crazy girl =]
It's nothing wrong , I do it too.
But i'm tired. Tired of forgiving and forgetting all the hurt caused to me by others.
Tired of always being there for everyone and when I need them , they are not there.
I'm just tired , TIRED OF EVERYTHING.
2010年9月1日星期三
I am an emotional person.
If you think that i don't care about you. You're totally WRONG !
I am jealous of the people you hugged.
Because for a moment , they held my world.
Why is it that , no matter how much you try to hide something , still your eyes can't lie ?
Why is it that , you can tell from someone's eyes when she is fooling around ?
But i trusted you !
It's like a knife moving around your heart trying to break it into lil pieces until you can't take it anymore.
No matter what you do the only way to get rid of the pain is too go threw it and accept it as what it is.
WITHOUT FORGIVENESS , THERE'S NO FUTURE.
Never say I LOVE YOU.
If you really don't care.
Never hold my hand.
If you are going to break my heart.
Never say you are going to.
If you don't plan to start.
Never look into my eyes.
If all you do is LIE.
Never say FOREVER.
Because forever makes me CRY.
Please don't be frighten by me for loving you so much.
Because i was very happy to love you.
I gave you my heart to let you know that no matter where i go , You are the only one whom have my heart.
You always be the one who drives me crazy.
I think this is a gift from God to have you here with me.
I will treasure all your love and all the things we share.
I want you to know i need you like i never needed anyone before.
I wanna be by your side , no matter what happen.
If there's only thing you can believe it's true I LIVE MY LIFE FOR YOU ♥
I am jealous of the people you hugged.
Because for a moment , they held my world.
Why is it that , no matter how much you try to hide something , still your eyes can't lie ?
Why is it that , you can tell from someone's eyes when she is fooling around ?
But i trusted you !
It's like a knife moving around your heart trying to break it into lil pieces until you can't take it anymore.
No matter what you do the only way to get rid of the pain is too go threw it and accept it as what it is.
WITHOUT FORGIVENESS , THERE'S NO FUTURE.
Never say I LOVE YOU.
If you really don't care.
Never hold my hand.
If you are going to break my heart.
Never say you are going to.
If you don't plan to start.
Never look into my eyes.
If all you do is LIE.
Never say FOREVER.
Because forever makes me CRY.
Please don't be frighten by me for loving you so much.
Because i was very happy to love you.
I gave you my heart to let you know that no matter where i go , You are the only one whom have my heart.
You always be the one who drives me crazy.
I think this is a gift from God to have you here with me.
I will treasure all your love and all the things we share.
I want you to know i need you like i never needed anyone before.
I wanna be by your side , no matter what happen.
If there's only thing you can believe it's true I LIVE MY LIFE FOR YOU ♥
2010年8月31日星期二
I found NOTHING.
I am trying to refuge the problem we having.
Because i knew myself can't face it at all.
Why did you wanna treat me like that ?
I don't want get hurt again and again.
It will made me MAD !
I'm starting to think that no matter what i do or who i am with that i won't experience joy anymore.
I want to know where she was much better than me.
I smiled listening to you say ,
I heard the more sad ,
How you say not me ,
She is much what you want to wait patiently.
I'd like to know what is she your infatuate expects i want to know why she let you have crazy.
I know she didn't have a different but i won't stay in your heart.
I'd like to know she is better than i do many in your heart.
I know i have to pay more than her but i can't change your mind to move.
Because i knew myself can't face it at all.
Why did you wanna treat me like that ?
I don't want get hurt again and again.
It will made me MAD !
I'm starting to think that no matter what i do or who i am with that i won't experience joy anymore.
I want to know where she was much better than me.
I smiled listening to you say ,
I heard the more sad ,
How you say not me ,
She is much what you want to wait patiently.
I'd like to know what is she your infatuate expects i want to know why she let you have crazy.
I know she didn't have a different but i won't stay in your heart.
I'd like to know she is better than i do many in your heart.
I know i have to pay more than her but i can't change your mind to move.
2010年8月29日星期日
What's going on ?
This set purely sucks.
What is written down bellow was written when i was SUFFERING.
It is weird. but it is me.
I LOVE YOU.
I don't know why i made this set.
I don't think anyone in the world.
That is ever alive know the real me.
I always have my secret and personality.
I have different faces here and there.
I doubt you are reading this at all.
I feel so weird. Haha.
To tell you the truth ,
I don't know what i am feeling right now.
I just feel relax.
It is as if my heart was taken away from my chest.
I felt free for once.
No grudges no anything =]
Who cares if my friend does't want me to do this.
She told me i can do whatever i want =]
Who cares what they think I want to do , I will fucking do it.
It's my life.
You don't have a remote button that controls my life.
I love this.
I love the new feeling I am having.
I have no idea if it is really there or not.
But all i know is that there are people who were in love.
I want to feel it.
Life is shiit.
But there will be the prize.
And I want the prize !
If you read until here.
Just say out : Joanne Lee. You're fucking crazy !
It is weird how a few minute ago I felt life was alright.
But now I feel like crying.
Like going angry.
Like hitting my head on the wall.
Just because of an action of a person.
Made me feel so disappointed.
So pissed.
So crazy.
I am too tired of life.
Too tired of having too many personalities.
Too tired that i have to change from one person to another.
I don't want to pretend.
No more.
When I first wrote that.
I was truly happy.
But once i think about you. I was sad.
I suddenly felt jealousy and hatred all over me again.
Thinking about it now , I can only cry.
I want to cry.
I want to feel how I felt before.
I want to feel it all over again.
This was just too much.
I don't want this anymore.
I am going to reach out to what I believe in.
No matter what you think.
Because I am who I am.
And you are who you are.
I am not going to give a damn about who likes who.
It's not my matter , it's theirs.
They end up wrong , their problem.
WHAT IS MY PROBLEM IS WHAT I AM GOING TO DO WITH LIFE.
What is written down bellow was written when i was SUFFERING.
It is weird. but it is me.
I LOVE YOU.
I don't know why i made this set.
I don't think anyone in the world.
That is ever alive know the real me.
I always have my secret and personality.
I have different faces here and there.
I doubt you are reading this at all.
I feel so weird. Haha.
To tell you the truth ,
I don't know what i am feeling right now.
I just feel relax.
It is as if my heart was taken away from my chest.
I felt free for once.
No grudges no anything =]
Who cares if my friend does't want me to do this.
She told me i can do whatever i want =]
Who cares what they think I want to do , I will fucking do it.
It's my life.
You don't have a remote button that controls my life.
I love this.
I love the new feeling I am having.
I have no idea if it is really there or not.
But all i know is that there are people who were in love.
I want to feel it.
Life is shiit.
But there will be the prize.
And I want the prize !
If you read until here.
Just say out : Joanne Lee. You're fucking crazy !
It is weird how a few minute ago I felt life was alright.
But now I feel like crying.
Like going angry.
Like hitting my head on the wall.
Just because of an action of a person.
Made me feel so disappointed.
So pissed.
So crazy.
I am too tired of life.
Too tired of having too many personalities.
Too tired that i have to change from one person to another.
I don't want to pretend.
No more.
When I first wrote that.
I was truly happy.
But once i think about you. I was sad.
I suddenly felt jealousy and hatred all over me again.
Thinking about it now , I can only cry.
I want to cry.
I want to feel how I felt before.
I want to feel it all over again.
This was just too much.
I don't want this anymore.
I am going to reach out to what I believe in.
No matter what you think.
Because I am who I am.
And you are who you are.
I am not going to give a damn about who likes who.
It's not my matter , it's theirs.
They end up wrong , their problem.
WHAT IS MY PROBLEM IS WHAT I AM GOING TO DO WITH LIFE.
2010年7月14日星期三
Everything going on well with you ?
总是在走到某个路口的时候想起你
总是在看到相似的背影的时候才会想你
总在听歌听到一半的时候想起你
我不想很想你
只是在我高兴的时候想起你
在我不高兴的时候也想起你
我很想你
只是不想去打扰你
总是在看到相似的背影的时候才会想你
总在听歌听到一半的时候想起你
我不想很想你
只是在我高兴的时候想起你
在我不高兴的时候也想起你
我很想你
只是不想去打扰你
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