Speechless day.

I'm sick and tired of it.
I care too fucking much and for what ?
To get nothing in fucking return ?
Everytime i become good friends with someone , or become closer to people its seems like NOTHING.
it just turns to fucking crap.
Somehow all the stupid drama comes fucking around and i try to help ,
because supposedly that's what friends do ,
but all just backfires right in my fucking face.

I'M FUCKING SICK OF IT !

No more drama ,
No more trying to help ,
and no more caring about if someone is okay or not.
Because they would never think of doing anything for me , at all.

So I'm sorry for caring and if that annoys you.
I'm sorry for stoping to ask if you were okay.
God just thinking about what fucking happened today.
Makes me want to throw up.

I'm so sorry to all those reading my blog.
I just feel like letting it all out.
I understand why people emo.
I am not the one of them but i know how they feel.
haizzz~~~
I'm not going to sit in a corner and cry or anything like that.
It is true that i hide the fact inside my heart.
I just want to show it in this blog.
But like always , I'll continue to be what people always know me as , the happy , crazy girl =]

It's nothing wrong , I do it too.
But i'm tired. Tired of forgiving and forgetting all the hurt caused to me by others.
Tired of always being there for everyone and when I need them , they are not there.
I'm just tired , TIRED OF EVERYTHING.

I am an emotional person.

If you think that i don't care about you. You're totally WRONG !

I am jealous of the people you hugged.
Because for a moment , they held my world.
Why is it that , no matter how much you try to hide something , still your eyes can't lie ?
Why is it that , you can tell from someone's eyes when she is fooling around ?
But i trusted you !
It's like a knife moving around your heart trying to break it into lil pieces until you can't take it anymore.
No matter what you do the only way to get rid of the pain is too go threw it and accept it as what it is.

WITHOUT FORGIVENESS , THERE'S NO FUTURE.

Never say I LOVE YOU.
If you really don't care.
Never hold my hand.
If you are going to break my heart.
Never say you are going to.
If you don't plan to start.
Never look into my eyes.
If all you do is LIE.
Never say FOREVER.
Because forever makes me CRY.

Please don't be frighten by me for loving you so much.
Because i was very happy to love you.
I gave you my heart to let you know that no matter where i go , You are the only one whom have my heart.

You always be the one who drives me crazy.
I think this is a gift from God to have you here with me.
I will treasure all your love and all the things we share.
I want you to know i need you like i never needed anyone before.
I wanna be by your side , no matter what happen.
If there's only thing you can believe it's true I LIVE MY LIFE FOR YOU ♥