I tried but I can't forget you.
I tried to not think of you.
I tried to not talk about you.
I tried to not hurt you.
But still i can't forget our strange memories.
I can't forget your sweet voice.
I can't not avoid you.
It is getting harder and harder as the days go by to fake being okay.
I never want to feel this way again.
I refuse to let anyone close to me again after you.
If I did or said something to upset you , I apologize.
However , I do really appreciate it if you talked to ME about it , NOT to everyone else !
I tell you how i feel how much i love you but you reject my loves and breaks my heart.
I don't know what i want in life.
I don't know what i want right now.
All i know is that i'm hurting so much inside that ,
and one day , there won't be any of me left.
Don't just look at me from the outside , get to know who i really am ,
and see that deep down i'm really hurting.
THAT IS LIFE AND I HAVE TO LEARN TO LIVE WITH IT.
I try to be strong for everyone , look at them if everything is fine.
Don't know where i am going , yea i'm smiling.
I am acting tough to show that i don't love you.
Each and everysecond i said once i can take any pain but this is too much , i will wait for u endless , either i will live with you or with your memories.
If i would be able to live only one day with you , i have nothing to fear.
Just for you. YPY
2010年10月23日星期六
2010年9月16日星期四
Speechless day.
I'm sick and tired of it.
I care too fucking much and for what ?
To get nothing in fucking return ?
Everytime i become good friends with someone , or become closer to people its seems like NOTHING.
it just turns to fucking crap.
Somehow all the stupid drama comes fucking around and i try to help ,
because supposedly that's what friends do ,
but all just backfires right in my fucking face.
I'M FUCKING SICK OF IT !
No more drama ,
No more trying to help ,
and no more caring about if someone is okay or not.
Because they would never think of doing anything for me , at all.
So I'm sorry for caring and if that annoys you.
I'm sorry for stoping to ask if you were okay.
God just thinking about what fucking happened today.
Makes me want to throw up.
I'm so sorry to all those reading my blog.
I just feel like letting it all out.
I understand why people emo.
I am not the one of them but i know how they feel.
haizzz~~~
I'm not going to sit in a corner and cry or anything like that.
It is true that i hide the fact inside my heart.
I just want to show it in this blog.
But like always , I'll continue to be what people always know me as , the happy , crazy girl =]
It's nothing wrong , I do it too.
But i'm tired. Tired of forgiving and forgetting all the hurt caused to me by others.
Tired of always being there for everyone and when I need them , they are not there.
I'm just tired , TIRED OF EVERYTHING.
I care too fucking much and for what ?
To get nothing in fucking return ?
Everytime i become good friends with someone , or become closer to people its seems like NOTHING.
it just turns to fucking crap.
Somehow all the stupid drama comes fucking around and i try to help ,
because supposedly that's what friends do ,
but all just backfires right in my fucking face.
I'M FUCKING SICK OF IT !
No more drama ,
No more trying to help ,
and no more caring about if someone is okay or not.
Because they would never think of doing anything for me , at all.
So I'm sorry for caring and if that annoys you.
I'm sorry for stoping to ask if you were okay.
God just thinking about what fucking happened today.
Makes me want to throw up.
I'm so sorry to all those reading my blog.
I just feel like letting it all out.
I understand why people emo.
I am not the one of them but i know how they feel.
haizzz~~~
I'm not going to sit in a corner and cry or anything like that.
It is true that i hide the fact inside my heart.
I just want to show it in this blog.
But like always , I'll continue to be what people always know me as , the happy , crazy girl =]
It's nothing wrong , I do it too.
But i'm tired. Tired of forgiving and forgetting all the hurt caused to me by others.
Tired of always being there for everyone and when I need them , they are not there.
I'm just tired , TIRED OF EVERYTHING.
2010年9月1日星期三
I am an emotional person.
If you think that i don't care about you. You're totally WRONG !
I am jealous of the people you hugged.
Because for a moment , they held my world.
Why is it that , no matter how much you try to hide something , still your eyes can't lie ?
Why is it that , you can tell from someone's eyes when she is fooling around ?
But i trusted you !
It's like a knife moving around your heart trying to break it into lil pieces until you can't take it anymore.
No matter what you do the only way to get rid of the pain is too go threw it and accept it as what it is.
WITHOUT FORGIVENESS , THERE'S NO FUTURE.
Never say I LOVE YOU.
If you really don't care.
Never hold my hand.
If you are going to break my heart.
Never say you are going to.
If you don't plan to start.
Never look into my eyes.
If all you do is LIE.
Never say FOREVER.
Because forever makes me CRY.
Please don't be frighten by me for loving you so much.
Because i was very happy to love you.
I gave you my heart to let you know that no matter where i go , You are the only one whom have my heart.
You always be the one who drives me crazy.
I think this is a gift from God to have you here with me.
I will treasure all your love and all the things we share.
I want you to know i need you like i never needed anyone before.
I wanna be by your side , no matter what happen.
If there's only thing you can believe it's true I LIVE MY LIFE FOR YOU ♥
I am jealous of the people you hugged.
Because for a moment , they held my world.
Why is it that , no matter how much you try to hide something , still your eyes can't lie ?
Why is it that , you can tell from someone's eyes when she is fooling around ?
But i trusted you !
It's like a knife moving around your heart trying to break it into lil pieces until you can't take it anymore.
No matter what you do the only way to get rid of the pain is too go threw it and accept it as what it is.
WITHOUT FORGIVENESS , THERE'S NO FUTURE.
Never say I LOVE YOU.
If you really don't care.
Never hold my hand.
If you are going to break my heart.
Never say you are going to.
If you don't plan to start.
Never look into my eyes.
If all you do is LIE.
Never say FOREVER.
Because forever makes me CRY.
Please don't be frighten by me for loving you so much.
Because i was very happy to love you.
I gave you my heart to let you know that no matter where i go , You are the only one whom have my heart.
You always be the one who drives me crazy.
I think this is a gift from God to have you here with me.
I will treasure all your love and all the things we share.
I want you to know i need you like i never needed anyone before.
I wanna be by your side , no matter what happen.
If there's only thing you can believe it's true I LIVE MY LIFE FOR YOU ♥
2010年8月31日星期二
I found NOTHING.
I am trying to refuge the problem we having.
Because i knew myself can't face it at all.
Why did you wanna treat me like that ?
I don't want get hurt again and again.
It will made me MAD !
I'm starting to think that no matter what i do or who i am with that i won't experience joy anymore.
I want to know where she was much better than me.
I smiled listening to you say ,
I heard the more sad ,
How you say not me ,
She is much what you want to wait patiently.
I'd like to know what is she your infatuate expects i want to know why she let you have crazy.
I know she didn't have a different but i won't stay in your heart.
I'd like to know she is better than i do many in your heart.
I know i have to pay more than her but i can't change your mind to move.
Because i knew myself can't face it at all.
Why did you wanna treat me like that ?
I don't want get hurt again and again.
It will made me MAD !
I'm starting to think that no matter what i do or who i am with that i won't experience joy anymore.
I want to know where she was much better than me.
I smiled listening to you say ,
I heard the more sad ,
How you say not me ,
She is much what you want to wait patiently.
I'd like to know what is she your infatuate expects i want to know why she let you have crazy.
I know she didn't have a different but i won't stay in your heart.
I'd like to know she is better than i do many in your heart.
I know i have to pay more than her but i can't change your mind to move.
2010年8月29日星期日
What's going on ?
This set purely sucks.
What is written down bellow was written when i was SUFFERING.
It is weird. but it is me.
I LOVE YOU.
I don't know why i made this set.
I don't think anyone in the world.
That is ever alive know the real me.
I always have my secret and personality.
I have different faces here and there.
I doubt you are reading this at all.
I feel so weird. Haha.
To tell you the truth ,
I don't know what i am feeling right now.
I just feel relax.
It is as if my heart was taken away from my chest.
I felt free for once.
No grudges no anything =]
Who cares if my friend does't want me to do this.
She told me i can do whatever i want =]
Who cares what they think I want to do , I will fucking do it.
It's my life.
You don't have a remote button that controls my life.
I love this.
I love the new feeling I am having.
I have no idea if it is really there or not.
But all i know is that there are people who were in love.
I want to feel it.
Life is shiit.
But there will be the prize.
And I want the prize !
If you read until here.
Just say out : Joanne Lee. You're fucking crazy !
It is weird how a few minute ago I felt life was alright.
But now I feel like crying.
Like going angry.
Like hitting my head on the wall.
Just because of an action of a person.
Made me feel so disappointed.
So pissed.
So crazy.
I am too tired of life.
Too tired of having too many personalities.
Too tired that i have to change from one person to another.
I don't want to pretend.
No more.
When I first wrote that.
I was truly happy.
But once i think about you. I was sad.
I suddenly felt jealousy and hatred all over me again.
Thinking about it now , I can only cry.
I want to cry.
I want to feel how I felt before.
I want to feel it all over again.
This was just too much.
I don't want this anymore.
I am going to reach out to what I believe in.
No matter what you think.
Because I am who I am.
And you are who you are.
I am not going to give a damn about who likes who.
It's not my matter , it's theirs.
They end up wrong , their problem.
WHAT IS MY PROBLEM IS WHAT I AM GOING TO DO WITH LIFE.
What is written down bellow was written when i was SUFFERING.
It is weird. but it is me.
I LOVE YOU.
I don't know why i made this set.
I don't think anyone in the world.
That is ever alive know the real me.
I always have my secret and personality.
I have different faces here and there.
I doubt you are reading this at all.
I feel so weird. Haha.
To tell you the truth ,
I don't know what i am feeling right now.
I just feel relax.
It is as if my heart was taken away from my chest.
I felt free for once.
No grudges no anything =]
Who cares if my friend does't want me to do this.
She told me i can do whatever i want =]
Who cares what they think I want to do , I will fucking do it.
It's my life.
You don't have a remote button that controls my life.
I love this.
I love the new feeling I am having.
I have no idea if it is really there or not.
But all i know is that there are people who were in love.
I want to feel it.
Life is shiit.
But there will be the prize.
And I want the prize !
If you read until here.
Just say out : Joanne Lee. You're fucking crazy !
It is weird how a few minute ago I felt life was alright.
But now I feel like crying.
Like going angry.
Like hitting my head on the wall.
Just because of an action of a person.
Made me feel so disappointed.
So pissed.
So crazy.
I am too tired of life.
Too tired of having too many personalities.
Too tired that i have to change from one person to another.
I don't want to pretend.
No more.
When I first wrote that.
I was truly happy.
But once i think about you. I was sad.
I suddenly felt jealousy and hatred all over me again.
Thinking about it now , I can only cry.
I want to cry.
I want to feel how I felt before.
I want to feel it all over again.
This was just too much.
I don't want this anymore.
I am going to reach out to what I believe in.
No matter what you think.
Because I am who I am.
And you are who you are.
I am not going to give a damn about who likes who.
It's not my matter , it's theirs.
They end up wrong , their problem.
WHAT IS MY PROBLEM IS WHAT I AM GOING TO DO WITH LIFE.
2010年7月14日星期三
Everything going on well with you ?
总是在走到某个路口的时候想起你
总是在看到相似的背影的时候才会想你
总在听歌听到一半的时候想起你
我不想很想你
只是在我高兴的时候想起你
在我不高兴的时候也想起你
我很想你
只是不想去打扰你
总是在看到相似的背影的时候才会想你
总在听歌听到一半的时候想起你
我不想很想你
只是在我高兴的时候想起你
在我不高兴的时候也想起你
我很想你
只是不想去打扰你
2010年6月13日星期日
One more time. One more chance.
当我再次遇见你
多想告诉你
细述着对你的感情
紧紧地将你拥入怀里
却发现你
一直驻足在我心里
这不停止的插曲
难以抹去
因为我知道结局都一样
不想受伤
那就不碰
我欺骗着自己
你已经是过去
忘得很努力
却是艰辛
真的很难放弃
我欺骗自己
我已经是过去
抹去的仅仅是泪滴
突然发现
原来我并没有删除你
是什么原因呢
是我不舍得还是只是因为太忙忘记了
又看了一遍以前日记
开始跟后面
真的是很大区别
从那回来后
我们聊天
了解对方
无所不谈
所有的一切
都好像是昨天刚发生的
我好想放下你
好想忘记你
一直逼一直逼
却一点效果都没有
害怕去有你足迹的地方
害怕望有你身影的场所
害怕想你对我说过的话
我会无缘无故的哭起来
听到音乐
我会无缘无故的流眼泪
我笑我自己做得太错
我笑我自己傻得可怜
我笑我自己怎么这么晚才认识你
不停的心理暗示
我与你是不可能
可我的梦
依旧有你的身影
不敢大哭
不敢伤心
不敢畏缩在一角
因为你的话我铭记在心
因为我害怕再次见到你
究竟是勇敢面对
畏缩躲避
都是因为我放不下你
如果真有遇见你的那一天
我只敢对你说
"你还好吗?"
不是我有多么喜欢你
是你在对的时间走进我的生活
又在错的时间抽离
所以我才会那么伤
因为时间太短
所以每一分钟我都清晰地记得
记得你的每一句话
记得你的每一个微笑
记得你的所有
不知道哪天我们会又一次相遇
我希望再次遇见你时我能微笑面对
多想告诉你
细述着对你的感情
紧紧地将你拥入怀里
却发现你
一直驻足在我心里
这不停止的插曲
难以抹去
因为我知道结局都一样
不想受伤
那就不碰
我欺骗着自己
你已经是过去
忘得很努力
却是艰辛
真的很难放弃
我欺骗自己
我已经是过去
抹去的仅仅是泪滴
突然发现
原来我并没有删除你
是什么原因呢
是我不舍得还是只是因为太忙忘记了
又看了一遍以前日记
开始跟后面
真的是很大区别
从那回来后
我们聊天
了解对方
无所不谈
所有的一切
都好像是昨天刚发生的
我好想放下你
好想忘记你
一直逼一直逼
却一点效果都没有
害怕去有你足迹的地方
害怕望有你身影的场所
害怕想你对我说过的话
我会无缘无故的哭起来
听到音乐
我会无缘无故的流眼泪
我笑我自己做得太错
我笑我自己傻得可怜
我笑我自己怎么这么晚才认识你
不停的心理暗示
我与你是不可能
可我的梦
依旧有你的身影
不敢大哭
不敢伤心
不敢畏缩在一角
因为你的话我铭记在心
因为我害怕再次见到你
究竟是勇敢面对
畏缩躲避
都是因为我放不下你
如果真有遇见你的那一天
我只敢对你说
"你还好吗?"
不是我有多么喜欢你
是你在对的时间走进我的生活
又在错的时间抽离
所以我才会那么伤
因为时间太短
所以每一分钟我都清晰地记得
记得你的每一句话
记得你的每一个微笑
记得你的所有
不知道哪天我们会又一次相遇
我希望再次遇见你时我能微笑面对
2010年5月9日星期日
2010年5月7日星期五
Sick like hell !
心仿佛解放了一样
但是在隐隐作痛
我知道这种事情出现
就好像我们之间再也不会有联系了
几天的休养日子
自由平淡
总算从几个星期以来的紧绷神经里抽离
心情愉悦
这星期一三五没上学
什么病的状况都发生在我身上><
痛到几乎晕倒在地
在场的都懂我当时的情况
有种想脱离的感觉
不想说话
不想吃止痛药
不想不去想一个人
不想回忆
不想接电话
不想拾起忘却的纪念
不想说谁有错
不想收到谁的牵挂
不想在乎微小的疼
不想恨
不想日日夜夜牵挂
当時間已不在
剩余的 捡起来了
储存在这里
我相信再多的牵挂
都等待着时间
渐渐化为安宁
寂寞难挨
别让我离开现实是如此的遥远
昨天看馒头那么伤心
自己心里也很难受
每天几乎也在垂死挣扎着
只知道现在做任何事情都很被动!
很想回到以前
尽管疲惫
但很真实
没有说谁是谁的唯一
谁是谁的知己
举足间流露出一种悲凉
继续活着吧!
既然选择活着
那就顺其自然吧~
没有人说是去故意伤害你
大家都只是为了更好的活着!
但是在隐隐作痛
我知道这种事情出现
就好像我们之间再也不会有联系了
几天的休养日子
自由平淡
总算从几个星期以来的紧绷神经里抽离
心情愉悦
这星期一三五没上学
什么病的状况都发生在我身上><
痛到几乎晕倒在地
在场的都懂我当时的情况
有种想脱离的感觉
不想说话
不想吃止痛药
不想不去想一个人
不想回忆
不想接电话
不想拾起忘却的纪念
不想说谁有错
不想收到谁的牵挂
不想在乎微小的疼
不想恨
不想日日夜夜牵挂
当時間已不在
剩余的 捡起来了
储存在这里
我相信再多的牵挂
都等待着时间
渐渐化为安宁
寂寞难挨
别让我离开现实是如此的遥远
昨天看馒头那么伤心
自己心里也很难受
每天几乎也在垂死挣扎着
只知道现在做任何事情都很被动!
很想回到以前
尽管疲惫
但很真实
没有说谁是谁的唯一
谁是谁的知己
举足间流露出一种悲凉
继续活着吧!
既然选择活着
那就顺其自然吧~
没有人说是去故意伤害你
大家都只是为了更好的活着!
2010年5月5日星期三
2010年4月22日星期四
的确...我不快乐.
我不快乐
真的不快乐
一切的一切就是这样的突如其来
就是这样的不如人所愿
我不想再心软撒手不管了
因为我的极限到了
正因为我曾经可以很信任的去相信太多
所以最近的太多
对我的打击已经够了
我没办法再这样下去
我有想过控制
但是我已经没办法再选择信任
请用真心对待我吧
不然我一定会崩溃
问自己快乐吗??
是的...我不快乐!!! ;'(((((((((
真的不快乐
一切的一切就是这样的突如其来
就是这样的不如人所愿
我不想再心软撒手不管了
因为我的极限到了
正因为我曾经可以很信任的去相信太多
所以最近的太多
对我的打击已经够了
我没办法再这样下去
我有想过控制
但是我已经没办法再选择信任
请用真心对待我吧
不然我一定会崩溃
问自己快乐吗??
是的...我不快乐!!! ;'(((((((((
2010年4月5日星期一
She said i'm a part of a fool.
Since i felt good inside dare i follow my heart.
Do i feel something special inside of you ?
Do i know what you're really think of me ?
And the raindrops keep falling into my heart.
And i just can't deny what feels so right.
Do i let myself go and feel the rain ?
Or should i play with caution and refrain ?
Whatever i do when it comes to you.
I know sometimes love plays the part of a fool.
I know what's in store though i can't say much more.
A chance worth the taking has open its door.
And i cant say i love you and i can't say i don't.
But i do wish i knew.
Do i feel something special inside of you ?
Do i know what you're really think of me ?
And the raindrops keep falling into my heart.
And i just can't deny what feels so right.
Do i let myself go and feel the rain ?
Or should i play with caution and refrain ?
Whatever i do when it comes to you.
I know sometimes love plays the part of a fool.
I know what's in store though i can't say much more.
A chance worth the taking has open its door.
And i cant say i love you and i can't say i don't.
But i do wish i knew.
2010年3月23日星期二
2010年3月20日星期六
2010年2月27日星期六
2010年1月10日星期日
请相信...你会幸福.....
感觉很奇怪...很受伤的感觉...
不知道怎么说了...我等不到任何的结果...
只是自己在傻傻的等...
有时候会问自己...为什么要守着一个几乎无望的希望??
连自己也不明白到底为什么...
明明知道你的心里住着一个她...却还是会不自觉的在等...
因为我知道她没走永远都住不进我的...我只能在门外徘徊...
你不知道你的心里根本就不肯放弃过去...
你总是活在你美丽的回忆里...要我怎么办啊??
我在期盼着你会忘记你会看到...
可是我们还能有多少的等待的时间啊??
一年??五年??十年??
我知道自己总是会有累的一天...
就算我累了...你也累了...
你还是放不下的时候我是不会踏进你的生活的...
我不想做她的一道影子或者是你的一个屏障你一个不伤心的理由...
我不想为了谁而牺牲了自己...我没那么的伟大...
如果在我等待的季节里你还是忘不了的话我只有离开...
就算是带着撕心裂肺的伤痛我也会走...
我不想自己有一天会后悔自己选择了一个替补的位置...
我不是她的替补...
我的世界你只能是两个身份...
1)与我无关...
2)就是我一个人的...
我不想在你的眼里总是别人的影子...
脑里的都是别人的美丽...
我会心痛...
有时候真的觉得自己应该是累了...
在过去的某一天...我遇到了一个人...
他的出现教会我什么叫幸福...
他的出现告诉我什么叫安心...
他的出现让我体会什么叫做无忧无虑...
他告诉我...以后他会给我幸福...
他会对我说...什么都不要想...一切都有他去想...
他还会说...要和我牵着手走下去...
我们要见证现实中的幸福...
我就这么一直相信着...坚守着...执着着...
直到有一天...我所站的地方只留下我一个人...
他离开了...
不是眼花...不是玩笑...不是幻觉...
只是...他真的离开了......
幸福来的那么轻易...
因为我只要傻傻的相信他就好了...
也许只是一点微不足道的小事...
却也让我的心里充满幸福...
幸福用完了...就只剩下了伤感和落寞...
我可以傻...但是不可以不放下...
放下...不是放开...而是从心里忘掉他给过我的幸福...
忘掉我们曾经承诺过的幸福...
忘掉我们曾经欢笑的记忆...
甚至...忘掉我曾经认识他...
他走了...不会再回来了......
我和他...就是两个世界...
我们本来是两个剧本里的角色...
他走了...
何必要傻傻地看着他的背影流泪...
却让我在他背后忧伤??
这世界上根本没有什么王子和灰姑娘的故事...
也许我会遇到...但是那只是遇到...
不代表我会拥有...
我...只是无意闯入他生命里的一个过客.......
也许我该学会恨一个人...
那我会活得更简单...但是...我不会...
也许一辈子都学不会...
过去的人...就不应该在生命里刻上痕迹...
他不在了...
我要学会看着手机安静也不以为是它坏掉了...
因为不会有人再像我那样...24小时骚扰他...
也许只为了问他一句"在做么??"
但是...我必须习惯...因为他走了.......
我需要自己的生活...
去追求自己的幸福和过好自己的生活...
不要因为一个人的伤感...
而去伤害更多的人...
也许你不在意...
也许你只是不小心...
也许你只是有一点点的寒冷...
当你不希望被轻易伤害的时候...别人同样也不希望...
去接受可能的幸福...去发现这个世界的美丽...
去珍惜你生命里应当存在的人...
去守护你生命里出现的那些轨迹...
去回头看看...你身后的人...
生活和爱情都不是童话...
要比思念一个只活在印象中的人要简单和幸福的多...
我可以继续傻傻的相信另外的人...
但是不要傻傻的放下...
那样等于用曾经的落寞断送未来的幸福...
当你行走的时候...
请不要看着影子悲伤...
当你向着太阳行走的时候再落寞的影子也在你的身后...
请相信...你会幸福...
当幸福来到的时候...就敞开胸怀去接受吧...
然后...好好的经营...呵护...
用最单纯的感情去恋爱...
就好像从没有受伤一样...
不要让下一个人去弥补已经离开人留下的伤害...
我没勇气把这篇文章写在别的地方...
只敢写在这里...
现在我想我们已经是陌生人了...
可是我发现我的脑海里都是你...
我现在才知道...原来我放不下你...
我总是骗自己...用坚强的外表伪装自己内心的胆怯...
也许你只是我生命中的过客...短短六个月...结束了.....
请相信...你一定会幸福........
不知道怎么说了...我等不到任何的结果...
只是自己在傻傻的等...
有时候会问自己...为什么要守着一个几乎无望的希望??
连自己也不明白到底为什么...
明明知道你的心里住着一个她...却还是会不自觉的在等...
因为我知道她没走永远都住不进我的...我只能在门外徘徊...
你不知道你的心里根本就不肯放弃过去...
你总是活在你美丽的回忆里...要我怎么办啊??
我在期盼着你会忘记你会看到...
可是我们还能有多少的等待的时间啊??
一年??五年??十年??
我知道自己总是会有累的一天...
就算我累了...你也累了...
你还是放不下的时候我是不会踏进你的生活的...
我不想做她的一道影子或者是你的一个屏障你一个不伤心的理由...
我不想为了谁而牺牲了自己...我没那么的伟大...
如果在我等待的季节里你还是忘不了的话我只有离开...
就算是带着撕心裂肺的伤痛我也会走...
我不想自己有一天会后悔自己选择了一个替补的位置...
我不是她的替补...
我的世界你只能是两个身份...
1)与我无关...
2)就是我一个人的...
我不想在你的眼里总是别人的影子...
脑里的都是别人的美丽...
我会心痛...
有时候真的觉得自己应该是累了...
在过去的某一天...我遇到了一个人...
他的出现教会我什么叫幸福...
他的出现告诉我什么叫安心...
他的出现让我体会什么叫做无忧无虑...
他告诉我...以后他会给我幸福...
他会对我说...什么都不要想...一切都有他去想...
他还会说...要和我牵着手走下去...
我们要见证现实中的幸福...
我就这么一直相信着...坚守着...执着着...
直到有一天...我所站的地方只留下我一个人...
他离开了...
不是眼花...不是玩笑...不是幻觉...
只是...他真的离开了......
幸福来的那么轻易...
因为我只要傻傻的相信他就好了...
也许只是一点微不足道的小事...
却也让我的心里充满幸福...
幸福用完了...就只剩下了伤感和落寞...
我可以傻...但是不可以不放下...
放下...不是放开...而是从心里忘掉他给过我的幸福...
忘掉我们曾经承诺过的幸福...
忘掉我们曾经欢笑的记忆...
甚至...忘掉我曾经认识他...
他走了...不会再回来了......
我和他...就是两个世界...
我们本来是两个剧本里的角色...
他走了...
何必要傻傻地看着他的背影流泪...
却让我在他背后忧伤??
这世界上根本没有什么王子和灰姑娘的故事...
也许我会遇到...但是那只是遇到...
不代表我会拥有...
我...只是无意闯入他生命里的一个过客.......
也许我该学会恨一个人...
那我会活得更简单...但是...我不会...
也许一辈子都学不会...
过去的人...就不应该在生命里刻上痕迹...
他不在了...
我要学会看着手机安静也不以为是它坏掉了...
因为不会有人再像我那样...24小时骚扰他...
也许只为了问他一句"在做么??"
但是...我必须习惯...因为他走了.......
我需要自己的生活...
去追求自己的幸福和过好自己的生活...
不要因为一个人的伤感...
而去伤害更多的人...
也许你不在意...
也许你只是不小心...
也许你只是有一点点的寒冷...
当你不希望被轻易伤害的时候...别人同样也不希望...
去接受可能的幸福...去发现这个世界的美丽...
去珍惜你生命里应当存在的人...
去守护你生命里出现的那些轨迹...
去回头看看...你身后的人...
生活和爱情都不是童话...
要比思念一个只活在印象中的人要简单和幸福的多...
我可以继续傻傻的相信另外的人...
但是不要傻傻的放下...
那样等于用曾经的落寞断送未来的幸福...
当你行走的时候...
请不要看着影子悲伤...
当你向着太阳行走的时候再落寞的影子也在你的身后...
请相信...你会幸福...
当幸福来到的时候...就敞开胸怀去接受吧...
然后...好好的经营...呵护...
用最单纯的感情去恋爱...
就好像从没有受伤一样...
不要让下一个人去弥补已经离开人留下的伤害...
我没勇气把这篇文章写在别的地方...
只敢写在这里...
现在我想我们已经是陌生人了...
可是我发现我的脑海里都是你...
我现在才知道...原来我放不下你...
我总是骗自己...用坚强的外表伪装自己内心的胆怯...
也许你只是我生命中的过客...短短六个月...结束了.....
请相信...你一定会幸福........
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