I found NOTHING.

I am trying to refuge the problem we having.
Because i knew myself can't face it at all.
Why did you wanna treat me like that ?
I don't want get hurt again and again.
It will made me MAD !
I'm starting to think that no matter what i do or who i am with that i won't experience joy anymore.

I want to know where she was much better than me.
I smiled listening to you say ,
I heard the more sad ,
How you say not me ,
She is much what you want to wait patiently.

I'd like to know what is she your infatuate expects i want to know why she let you have crazy.
I know she didn't have a different but i won't stay in your heart.
I'd like to know she is better than i do many in your heart.
I know i have to pay more than her but i can't change your mind to move.

What's going on ?

This set purely sucks.
What is written down bellow was written when i was SUFFERING.
It is weird. but it is me.
I LOVE YOU.
I don't know why i made this set.
I don't think anyone in the world.
That is ever alive know the real me.
I always have my secret and personality.
I have different faces here and there.

I doubt you are reading this at all.
I feel so weird. Haha.
To tell you the truth ,
I don't know what i am feeling right now.
I just feel relax.
It is as if my heart was taken away from my chest.
I felt free for once.
No grudges no anything =]

Who cares if my friend does't want me to do this.
She told me i can do whatever i want =]
Who cares what they think I want to do , I will fucking do it.
It's my life.
You don't have a remote button that controls my life.
I love this.
I love the new feeling I am having.

I have no idea if it is really there or not.
But all i know is that there are people who were in love.
I want to feel it.
Life is shiit.
But there will be the prize.
And I want the prize !
If you read until here.
Just say out : Joanne Lee. You're fucking crazy !

It is weird how a few minute ago I felt life was alright.
But now I feel like crying.
Like going angry.
Like hitting my head on the wall.
Just because of an action of a person.
Made me feel so disappointed.
So pissed.
So crazy.
I am too tired of life.
Too tired of having too many personalities.
Too tired that i have to change from one person to another.
I don't want to pretend.
No more.
When I first wrote that.
I was truly happy.
But once i think about you. I was sad.
I suddenly felt jealousy and hatred all over me again.
Thinking about it now , I can only cry.
I want to cry.
I want to feel how I felt before.
I want to feel it all over again.
This was just too much.
I don't want this anymore.

I am going to reach out to what I believe in.
No matter what you think.
Because I am who I am.
And you are who you are.
I am not going to give a damn about who likes who.
It's not my matter , it's theirs.
They end up wrong , their problem.

WHAT IS MY PROBLEM IS WHAT I AM GOING TO DO WITH LIFE.