Speechless day.

I'm sick and tired of it.
I care too fucking much and for what ?
To get nothing in fucking return ?
Everytime i become good friends with someone , or become closer to people its seems like NOTHING.
it just turns to fucking crap.
Somehow all the stupid drama comes fucking around and i try to help ,
because supposedly that's what friends do ,
but all just backfires right in my fucking face.

I'M FUCKING SICK OF IT !

No more drama ,
No more trying to help ,
and no more caring about if someone is okay or not.
Because they would never think of doing anything for me , at all.

So I'm sorry for caring and if that annoys you.
I'm sorry for stoping to ask if you were okay.
God just thinking about what fucking happened today.
Makes me want to throw up.

I'm so sorry to all those reading my blog.
I just feel like letting it all out.
I understand why people emo.
I am not the one of them but i know how they feel.
haizzz~~~
I'm not going to sit in a corner and cry or anything like that.
It is true that i hide the fact inside my heart.
I just want to show it in this blog.
But like always , I'll continue to be what people always know me as , the happy , crazy girl =]

It's nothing wrong , I do it too.
But i'm tired. Tired of forgiving and forgetting all the hurt caused to me by others.
Tired of always being there for everyone and when I need them , they are not there.
I'm just tired , TIRED OF EVERYTHING.